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An Imperfect Essay From Believer Poet

When first placed on the Believer Poet Mission, I never thought it would be so difficult. I’ve battled and continue to battle through so many issues in order to see that the Believer Poet Mission is accomplished. My own imperfections, the main revealing components of this Mission create a challenge for themselves. The imperfections I embrace so frequently causes the Believer Poet Mission to go misunderstood by so many individuals, and the imperfect limitations within every person who views or reads my work, allows the core of my life and life’s work to go unnoticed. My life and life’s work is the shuttle of this Mission. Without them both, joined with Christ, the Believer Poet Mission is completely void.

My writing is all too often unclear, abstract, confusing, contradicting, imperfect, indistinguishable, and incoherent. It’s not because I don’t know how to write, or because I don’t know how to get my thoughts from my head to the paper. Rather it’s because what I experience, what I have to deliver, and the understanding I grasp and discover in the revelations from God have multiple meanings and are unexplainable. My writing wasn’t given from God to be fully enjoyed, but was rather given because there is something for all universes to discover within its mystery.

My writing and artworks reveal something extraordinary. Although they may be confusing at times, one must seek the randomness within my work with all their heart and soul, to unearth the evidence that God is expressing. The evidence that proves all geniuses are imperfect and that Christ, His Son, is the only Perfection.

I’ve never once sought to be viewed as an egoistic, mentally ill, untalented offbeat poet, but that is exactly how I may be portrayed throughout my life. I will not be portrayed this way because this is who I am, but rather because this is how the world will view me, in order for me to reveal the message God has placed on my heart for Him.

The message I’m revealing must to be delivered, and it’s obligated to be delivered in a specific way. You may think to yourself, "Why only one way? Aren’t there numerous ways this message can be delivered without Ahrend’s Image being destroyed, and without it being so confusing?" Friends, I tell you there are many ways that this message could be delivered, but God has designed it to proceed the way that it is for a specific reason. I have strong held convictions that God intends the Mission to be delivered in this manner, because He understands that this is the only way for it to be forever accomplished in our world. However, I’m not fully certain of His exact motive for the design, but can only embrace the convictions I feel within the depths of my soul that tell me to continue.

You may think to yourself, "Does God want Ahrend to be viewed as an imperfect, untalented, mentally ill, insane poet?" I don’t believe He does, but I believe God allows things to happen to specific people, or in a specific way, because it is the best way for Him to reach the hearts of humanity. God never wanted His Son, Jesus Christ, to die. I firmly believe this, but God felt the death of His Son was the best way to save the world and to reveal His infinite love to all. I honestly don’t believe that God wants me to be perceived by others in a negative way, but He gives me the strength to withstand through all the persecutions and fallacies that will be placed on me, so that He can deliver the message of Truth.

Think about it this way. God saved our world. There were numerous ways He could have saved it, but He chose to send His only Son, Jesus Christ the Perfection, to die. Why did God choose this way over the infinite ways He could have saved the world? Is seems to me to have been the most difficult way for Him and for His Son. Maybe out of all the ways He could have saved us, this was the only way we could come to know Him eternally, who knows? Maybe out of all the ways to deliver the message He is delivering through me, the method I am following is the only source that will forever stand to lead the universe into an everlasting perception of the only Perfection.

I have to deliver the truth that resides within the Mission, and I have to deliver it the way that He is calling it to be delivered. I accept the fact that this world will undoubtedly think I’m prideful, insane, untalented, fake and egoistic, due to the Missions design. However, I don’t call myself an imperfect geniuses because I'm prideful, want fame, or think I’m more advanced than others, but I rather express that I have an imperfect endowment, because this wicked world refuses to see it.

When Jesus came to carry out His Mission, He knew that the world must believe that He is the Son of God for people to know His Father. By saying this, I’m demonstrating how the world must come to realize that I am a genius and that I am imperfect, in order for the world and those in it to witness first hand that all geniuses are imperfect and that Christ is the only Perfection. If one never comes to recognize that I am a genius and that I am imperfect, then every work I’ve ever completed and every breath I’ve ever taken is worthless. The universe must discover that genius dwells inside, and that it is imperfect. I know God has called me to expose the imperfection of geniuses and the Perfection of His Son. I will continue to rejoice in my imperfect brillance, because I know Perfection truly does live in me, although at times it may be absent from my life and work. Perfection lives in me though Christ,the King of Kings, the beauty of nature, flowers,seasons and beyond.